Sleeping in me
there is a driving unease,
tainting my life with disease,
that makes all reeling with sheer nausea,

chill like a breeze,
it's now an urging squeeze,
querying a basic premise:
why do I accept shit from bastards,

A cleansing, causting spread in my brain
flattening all, leaving red stains 
covering the walls of my consciousness,
a force annihilating all restraints 
of my mind,

rising inside
from sleaze and smeared tears
that won't come back to my eyes,
bleeding,

Now overwhelming in its true power,
all things turn around for their disgrace,
a hole in black, draining all pain that's left,
giving a sense to the hate 
that blooms in my 
heart,

rising inside
from a bliss breeding deep in me
preying on all life in sight,
killing,

Yesterday I would made a full retreat,
I would hide myself in a cocoon of debris,
now it's so unacceptable for me
a burst of outrage awakes if I think of it,

dark images of slain aspects of me
fill my head, overcoming any sense of grief,
a slow boiling climbing from the depths of pride
that make my psyche explode 
with wrath,

rising inside
from sleaze and smeared tears
that won't come back to my eyes,

wrath
rising inside
from a bliss breeding deep in me
preying on all life in sight,
killing,

bleeding,
killing,
bleeding,
killing.